When I first started working full time when little man was 5 months old, I had major working mum guilt. However it definitely made me a better mum working and having some adult time versus mummy time.
Then things settled down for a year and being honest, I never felt guilty.
Okay, maybe occasionally when he was poorly and I had to try and leave him at nursery when I knew he should really be at home with me. Some days it broke my heart.
Well working mum guilt is back in 2017…and if I am honest, it has taken me by surprise.
Little man is growing up so much and is now a little boy. He knows what he wants and you can have proper conversations with him now.
For the first time…..ever, on Sunday he asked for pasta for dinner. The last time I gave him pasta it ended up being thrown around the dining room (with cream carpets I may add). I vowed not to do this again for a while if he was going through a fussy eating phase.
So I made him pasta. He ate half of it so it was a good effort.
He then asked for yoghurts, said please and thank you, and then wanted to watch ‘I E O’ which turned out to be ‘Let it go’ which turned out to be Frozen. Who knew?! So after a few tantrums and misinterpretations we put it on for him.
All these little mannerisms and his cute little ways make me love him more than I already did.
I found myself pondering, do I need to work full time? Could I not have one day at home alone with him a week?
You see, as both Daddy and I work full time we both share nursery pick ups and drop offs and split weekend activities. Yet I have noticed that he asks more for Daddy.
This upsets me. I know it shouldn’t and that it is a phase he is going through, as he loves Mummy cuddles too. Yet to have him ask for Daddy more than Mummy is difficult to deal with.
So could I work 4 days a week and have a day a week with little man? Is this really for the best or is it because I just want my little man back?
Maybe I need to take some time to let things settle down and have a think about it.
Have you ever had a crisis of confidence being a working mum and having it all?
Busy Working Mummy XOXO