When it really comes down to it, do you have what it takes to fight….or flight?
It has been a weird week this week. Our decorating started which of course affected my anxiety massively. I think I have handled it pretty well with only 2 ‘breakdowns’ as hubby called them. We do still have a week to go, with our whole downstairs starting on Monday, so I will possibly reach 5 or 6 by the end of the week.
I also had to drive down to our regional offices for a big team day. I don’t particularly like these sorts of days, as I find them slightly uncomfortable and nerve wracking..
Then, to top it off I had to go to a networking event on my own, which was basically a lot of men in suits talking business. I felt incredibly intimated and it was really difficult.
At least two of these things I could have got out of if I really put my mind to it.
But that is not me. I am not a quitter. So I chose to fight. I have been fighting my whole life, so why should this week be any different?
Even though I may offer my opinion on something that I say I don’t want to do, it isn’t because I don’t want to do it. It is because I am not sure I can do it.
I have been an anxious mess this week, feeling like I may explode at any point. I have another week of decorating to get through, and then I am off on a management course with work for 2 days before driving down for a week in Cornwall over Easter with the family.
There is so much going on. Exciting stuff. Opportunities to spend time with my family, having my house decorated to look like our home rather than just a house, and a great course I have been picked to go on by my Manager.
I would never quit. I will do these things. The trick is to not think too far ahead.
This weekend we had a couple of plans. I didn’t go to the gym, little man was really poorly on Saturday afternoon and only wanted to snuggle with me, and I ate my weight in pizza and chocolate. I haven’t even done any blogging this week other than to write this post.
You know what? Sometimes that is okay. As long as you keep fighting, and never flight. It will make you a stronger person. It will give you the determination you need to succeed.
If you have a bad day, a week, a month even, then know that as long as you are fighting and still putting yourself in these awkward situations, you are winning.
Busy Working Mummy XOXO