My letter to myself 10 years ago
If you are reading this, you are just starting out on the road to college. You will soon realise that you don’t want to continue and that’s ok. Don’t make yourself feel guilty, think about what you want to do and do it. You can succeed.
Keep working hard and get your head down. Don’t forget to have fun and enjoy life whilst you can though. It will soon get harder as you get older and you will feel that you have the whole world on your shoulders.
Ignore the bullies. They will soon realise that they have better things to do than to chase after you and make your life hell. I know it is hard, but don’t lock yourself away and stop talking to the people that care about you. They will get you through this hard time and you will come out a better person. The feeling of nervousness and looking over your shoulder doesn’t go away, but you learn to live with it and it becomes easier.
Don’t worry about what you eat so much; just enjoy eating what you want. You made it harder for me as I constantly battle with trying to eat healthy and feeling guilty when I eat something naughty. It isn’t worth it.
Try and make time for your friends. You will soon be moving away and it will be difficult to see them. Keep in contact with them – that’s really important. You grew up together and soon you will only know what’s going on in their lives through facebook. Don’t let it.
You will meet lots of guys throughout the next few years but one particularly special one. Don’t be scared of waiting for him whilst he goes away. It will all fall into place when he gets back, it will be worth the wait.
Remember always that you are wanted. Don’t look for problems when there aren’t any, it will only make things worse. Just keep moving forward and doing what you are doing. Take life with a pinch of salt. You are capable and strong enough to get through anything life throws at you.
You may start to like being in control and won’t be comfortable when things happen spontaneously. Learn to live with this, but still enjoy life. It is too short to worry about keeping your house tidy at all times or doing everything to a strict schedule. It will make you a better person in the long run if you don’t get too obsessive early on as I find this really hard to cope with now.
Lastly, you will be given a gift that will change your life. Treasure him. Watch him grow and help him develop in the best way possible. He will put your life into perspective and you will enjoy being a little family.
You will learn the biggest lesson in life – that nothing else matters.
You (10 years later) xx